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Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

I love coffee!!

You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe

But don't think plain - instead think, uncomplicated You're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guys Down to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites. And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Your Spicy Score: Mild

You may not make the hottest first impression.. But you're definitely the type of girl that sticks in a guy's mind. You prefer to play things cool. You know that good things come to those who wait. And the amazing thing about you is that you get hotter over time!

How Spicy Are You?

to be continued

Sleepy...

Been drinking wine again due to that "talk" we had earlier. Now I feel as if I'm the meanest girl there is. I feel so bad. I really do... Oh my goodness am I that bad?

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Yesterday was St. Valentine's day. Lovers were everywhere, flowers were flooding, and goodness every lover seemed starry eyed. No I'm not being the love scrooge again, instead... oh who am I kidding?! No really I won't write about the bad stuff about Valentine's day. Baka may tumawag nanaman sa kin na man hater dyan... o bitter... hehehehehehehe... peace tyo Mean, Mode!!

Okay, so yesterday I've seen countless ladies carrying flowers with big a big smile on their faces, guys going out of their way just to make their love one happy. I was at UST church asking for guidance for another day at shcool. Then I realized that Valentine's day isn't just about lovers it's about love. A celebration of love, be it with family, friends or a special someone. The day is not about giving flowers, chocolates or presents to the ones you love but sharing the love you feel.

Status: Lag

Burn Out

From all the stress that school works have given me, I think I've lost it!! My brain's not functioning properly and last week I was a complete mess!! 99% of the time, I don't know what's happening around me. And I'm so not like that!! Okay, so yesterday I realized what's wrong with me and I found out that I'm burn out. It seems like I lost my spark. I just hope it comes back now, beacuse I really need it!! Well anyway, I'm procrastinating again... hehehehehehehehehe... I hope this week will be a better one, and I'm crossing my finger to that...

xiuxianfushi

I'm not in my normal self for the past days. And I blame it all on stress!! I'm not that insomniac anymore but I still don't get enough sleep. It feels like my school works are chasing me day and night even in my sleep. And right now I'm drinking wine. Yes, I'm currently drinking a glass full of wine while trying to squeeze all the brain juices that's left in my head for a school work. Well anyway, this post was due yesterday, but let's just say that the lazy me emerged again yesterday. So here's my real post...
First of, I'm not a man hater!! And when I say I'm not, believe me cause I'm really not!! I think most of my friends especially my HS friends, think that I'm a man hater, though I don't blame for thinking such things. Just because I'm not one of their [men] biggest fan doesn't mean that I hate them. Hate is such a strong word and I definitely don't harbor that feeling for men. I think the reason why they see me as a man hater is because I generalized men as a a headache and problem to the whole population of women. There was a time in high school a classmate asked me why I don't have a crush or boyfriend and my answer was:
Men are created to give women headaches and problems, and I don't want such things...
And the mentality, that men are created to make women cry became part of my views, and now it's so hard to get that way of thinking out of my mind. Until now I'm trying to open my mind about men. Now I think that there are men who are made to please women, men who are created to love and cherish women and men who are simply here on earth to make women suffer. Can you call that progress in my part? I want to think so. At least now I don't see them as creatures who will only bring forth headaches and problem to women.
Now about the crushes... I did have crushes when I was in HS. Hard to believe? Well believe it. No they're not anime characters!! they're real men. The only problem is, that I'll only realize that I have a crush on him [who ever he is] is when I don't have a crush on him anymore. Weird right? I was in first year college when I realize that I had a crush on this certain batch mate. He's not one of the school's good looking boys, but I liked him because he's super nice. Sadly, the feeling is gone before I even realized my feelings for that certain someone. Well, see I have crushes... It's just that I don't talk about such things doesn't mean I don't have crushes.
Now let me tell the reasons why I don't have a boyfriend
First of all I'm still not that mature enough to be in a relationship
I don't want extra problems and headaches
I have so many things in mind right now and a boyfriend doesn't fit anywhere in my life at this moment
I love my freedom
At the moment I can't see myself being with someone
I want to finish my studies first and be successful before everything else
What really need right now is a servant, someone who will do all the things for me
So there... Labidabs, Ging I'm not a man hater it's just that a boyfriend or a man doesn't fit right now with my goals.

2 POSTS IN ONE DAY

WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME?! I'VE BEEN TO CARELESS LATELY, NEGLECTING MY STUDIES!! HECK!! I DIDN'T EVEN STUDIED FOR POL DY PRELIM AND TO THINK THAT'S A VERY VERY DIFFICULT SUBJECT BECAUSE OF THE READINGS!! AND NOW!? WHAT?! I STILL HAVE TO STUDY FOR LIT PRELIM, I HAVE TO MAKE A JINGLE FOR FPJ AND AD CAMPAIGN'S JUST WEEKS AWAY!! WHY!? WHY!? OH WHY!? I CAN'T BE THIS CARELESS!! WWWAAAHHH!! I REALLY REALLY NEED DIVINE INTERVENTION!!

Feminist?

What is the essence of being a woman?

Is it her hair? breasts? what?!

Yesterday I saw a preview a noon time talk show from a newly aired channel. One host said that "ang kaganapan ng pagiging isang babae ay ang pagiging ina..." of course it's not the exact words but, it's like she's saying that the very worth of a woman is being a mother and bearing a child. Anyway, their topic was married women for several years that doesn't have a child yet. I was irated at what the host or writer's message that for a woman to be a "REAL" woman, she must have a child. I didn't watched the show but I definitely disagree at what the host said in the preview.
I remember back then, a question was raised in a beauty contest I guess, I'm not sure... so anyway the question was about the essence of being a woman, and most contestant answered that the very essence of being a woman is bearing a child and blah... blah... blah... which I strongly disagree. Yes women was given the gift of bearing children, but their existence doesn't solely depends on giving birth and adding population to society. If the very essence of being a woman is giving birth and having a child then what about those barren women or the old maid who doesn't have a child? Does that mean that they're not complete or fulfilled? I don't think so... I believe that God created a woman as man's companion. She's not a subordinate, or a helper but a companion. With equal rights and opportunities. And if having a child is the standard of being a fulfilled woman then the others who doesn't have a child or the ability to bear one will forever be hmmmmm... what's the right word for that... hmmm.... incomplete? is that it? I know there are women who feels incomplete because of their inability to bear a child. I don't blame them if they feel that way, because society expects them or tells them that having a child will complete them and their family. Even in the olden days a womn who has the inability to bear a child is frowned upon in the society. Husbands will take a concubine to bear him a child, or even worse give the woman back to her family. See? the mentlity that the essence of being a woman is bearing a child dates back in pre-historic time.
I believe that God created woman with a purpose other that giving birth. I think it's so wrong to base the very existence of a woman in to giving birth. There are barren women, old maids or unfortunate women who can't produce the right size of eggcells, because God has plan for them. I think they have another purpose in life. I believe that God has a purpose for everyone.

So what is the essence of being a woman?

It's knowing what she is, what she wants, knowing her purpose and being the woman she wants to be...

Hello Kitty and Dear Daniel

Last tuesday I met up with Glai at Goldolocks Espana. I gave her, her resume, an assignment for one of her subject. Then we went to SM San Lazaro, it's her first time to be there so we went around and looked at some stuffs. I even saw the shoes I've been wanting to have since last year. So we walked and walked for several hours then we ate at McDO. After eating were ready to head home. But as luck would have it and it's no surprise that Espana was jam packed with traffic and it's hard to find a jeepney to ride. So we waited and waited, and waited, and after several minutes of waiting we decided to go to Mini Stop and sit and relax. We talked about so many things about our high school friends and classmates, then about grade school and the rumor that My Melody is Hello Kitty's child. So who's the father? Hello Panda? joke lang... My Melody is not Hello Kitty's child, but Hello Kitty has a boyfriend. Yes she has a boyfriend. His name is Dear Daniel. He was created in 1999. Daniel got his name from a 1971 movie character from the U.S. Hello Kitty also has two pet namely: Charmmy Kitty and a hamster named Sugar. Charmmy Kitty was given to Hello Kitty' father George and boyfriend Dear Daniel.

You really get to learn new things everyday. I just found out that Hello Kitty's real name is Kitty White. All this time I thought Hello Kitty is just Hello Kitty. But lo and behold!! Her surname is White!! Her blood type is -A, born in London!! She born in London!! Why? beacuse from what I read, at the time of hercreation, British culture was very popular at that time with japanese girls.

nakikigaya kay jaymie

Your Toes Should Be White

A little funky and a little fresh, you're constantly evolving your flirting style. Your ideal guy: A witty brainiac with hottie potential Stay away from: Overly dorky guys who become obsessed with you

What Color Should Your Toenails Be?

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

You Are Chocolate Ice Cream

Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

You Are Fall!

Thoughtful Expressive Creative Poetic Smart

What Season Are You?

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

Eating...

Ever since I was little I've been picky with the food I eat. I remember when I was in elementary I wanted to eat fried pork but my lola and mama says that there's no fried pork to be serve at the table so being the bratty me, I had one of those temper tantrum that I'm so familiar of. And the result of that temper tantrum... they caved in and cooked the food I wanted. Sometimes, when I don't like the food I will pour coffee at my rice and sometimes a little soysauce and eat it as it is. I never out grew eating rice with soysauce but rice with coffee is definetely out in my appetite. I will admit that sometimes I don't eat even though I'm hungry not because I don't want to gain weight but I'm just plain lazy... Yes i'm lazy, lazy to chew the food, lazy to prepare food and lazy to clean up after eating. And to top it all up I'm experiencing taste fatigue. Plus I barely eat properly at home. Actually I eat only one proper meal a day. If I had rice at lunch I won't eat the food served at the table at dinner, I'll just cook instant noodles or eat bread. Or sometime I won't eat lunch because I don't like the food, i'm not in the mood to, or simply because I'm just lazy, then I'll eat dinner in the evening. Oh!! and have I already mentioned that I don't eat breakfast? Since I was little I don't like eating breakfast. Yes I know it's the most important meal of the day but I really don't like eating breakfast, coffee's enough to jump start my day. But at school I eat more that I ususally do at home. I also eat alot when I go out with my family or friends. I also eat lunch and dinner pag sinigang ang ulam or yung ginisng ampalaya... hhhmmm... yum... yum...

I really love to eat. I just don't know why I don't feel like eating at home or why do I starve myself. I don't have an eating disorder. I'm really just picky with the food I eat. But one thing I don't like gaining weight is... All the fat I gain goes right to my cheeks!! Yes!! my cheeks!! mukha daw siopao sabi ni papa... grrr... but I do want to gain some weight... I just don't like it going to my cheeks...

si...

Ariane.

For some unknown reason, I suddenly remembered her and her expression "TONGEK"

Wala lang... Pol Dy recitation again tommorrow... hay... Pol Dy...

tulog na!! aga pa ng pasok mo bukas!!

I can do it!! GO!! GO!! GO!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!! <---- that's the optimistic me...

I think there's a 50% chance that I'll pass pol dy and fil? <----- that's the pessimistic me talking...

Well let's just see what'll happen in next 2 months...

To pass or not to pass? that is the question...

pero syempre kelangan pumasa ako... bwahahahahaha!!

procrastinating again...

Awhile ago I was doing my homework for Political Dynamics. But being the procrastinator that I am... I stopped doing it when I was almost finish. Yes!! I know!! Procrastinating is bad!! bad!! I say!! My Journalism teacher once told us students that if you can do it now, do it... It seems like my brain wasn't working fine when shee said that... I wasn't able to absorb what she said... though I'm really doing my best to stop this bad habbit of mine... But I think I made a progress though... I mean back then I'll start doing whatever I needed to do, then when 10%-20% is finish I'll stop then cram later. But now 80-90% is finish before I stop and laze around...(can you even call that progress?) hahahahahaha!! Yes I'm doing my best to stop procrastinating... Hey!! hey, hey!! I know you're raising a brow there!! So stop it!! I'm really trying to change here!! So enyweiz.. back to Pol. Dy. the big question this year is... Will Len-Len survive Pol. Dy? I hope so...

Feliz Año Nuevo!! (Happy New Year!!)

First post in the first day of the year!!

Yey!! so in line with the New Year and since its the first day of the year... lets talk about uhmmm... First times?

It's the first day of the year and my 'lil bro is already having one of his episodes... err... tantrums... (sabi nga ni mama... "ali mu na Len balu mu nang atsyu yang toyu" inaasar ko pa kasi sya...)

First school I ever attended was *drum roll please...* tentenenentenentenenetenten... The school we love St. mary's is her name...

My first ever teacher was Mrs. Alenea, followed by Ms. ______ (forgot her name... sungit kasi eh... naging substitute teacher nmen sya... nanganak kasi si Mdm. Alenea) After few months *tentenenentenentenententen* WELCOME BACK Mrs. Alenea!! and after few months nag L.O.A. ulit sya kasi... well... let's just say na nasundan agad ung baby nla ni Mr. Alenea...

First time I made someone cry was when I was in JK... na-prinsipal's office p sya dhil sa 'kin... (bad Lelen no? ako n nga nagpaiyak sya pa ang napapunta sa Principal's office)

First school bus: Bus 23 owned by Mrs. Reyes. Bus Driver: Mang Pete... super bait nya... so lovable... Bus Conductor: Mang Badong... first kong nakilala sa bus Can't remember na... but I can still remember the face of my busmate na sinukahan ako... at alam ko pa kung saan sya hinahatid dti ng bus her name starts with letter "J"

First ever hated teacher: Mrs. Arvesu... bata pa ko non nung naaasar ako sa kanya... sinusubuan nga nya ko ng food kasi sa super bagal ko kumain mllate kme sa activity nmen... tpos andami pang dhilan kung bkit ako asar sa kanya... pero ngayon di na... super kulit ko lng tlga dti... (nyak!! lalo pa ata lumala ang kakulitan ko...)

First ever hated classmate... "K" start ng name nya...

First super major crush: K.B. initials nya... He's the niece of my 3rd year advisor... Second crush... si L.A.D.

First anime I ever loved: Sailor Moon!! "Moon crystal power make-up!!" "In the name of justice I will pusnish you!!"

First time I draw... can't remember na... hehehehehe...

First ever owned rag doll *life size un* was named Ging-ging... Sad to say naging laman nalang sya ng unan...

First ever pet: A dog with the name of Saddam... Bakit Saddam ang name nya? kasi sikat nun si Saddam Hussein...

First kiss this year... oi ano yang iniisip mo di un un... kiss ako ng 'lil bro ko... 'coz magddowload ako ng game...

First ***s... siguro to na ung iniisip mo... si...(drum roll please...) *tentenenenetententen...* si... ****tttooooootttt**** secret...

First fiction book owned: Alice's Adventure in Wonderland...

First time to commute alone, that means without an adult except for my classmate as a companion... Class was suspended that day... eh kaysa nman maghintay kme hanggang pumuti na ang mga buhok nmen eh, lumayas na kme ng school... I was in grade 4 then...

First ever section JK-Joy

First time bitten by a dog: I was in SK then... kinukulit ko si Saddam habang enjoy sya sa pagkain nya... un nakagat nya tuloy pinky ko...

First time akong nasampal... wag na bad naman kasi talaga nagawa ko eh... errr... nasabi pala...

First ever anime crush: Dennis ng Ghost Fighter...

There are so many "firsts" I want to share kya lang can't remember it all na... tsaka kelangan ko pang i-download ung game na gusto ng bro ko...

Happy New Year!! Feliz Año Nuevo!!

things part 2

After ranting on how bad things turned out to be this year, it's time to appreciate good things that had happened.

Even though it's a tough year, there are lots of things to be thankful about no matter how big or little it is.

First I would like to thank God that we're still alive and breathing!! and to many more years to come!! wooohooo!!

For passing every tests and major exams(kahit di masyado nag-aral)

I've learned how to save money!! and be trifty(biruin nyo marunong na ko mag-ipon kahit papano)

Yey!! my cheeks are not that chubby anymore!!

Hamsters!! Just love playing with those little rodents!!

I got 1.25 in my Expt'l Psychology!! And to think tagilid ako sa subject na yun...(thank you sa mga hamster!! nakalabas sila ng maze!!)

I've read many good books this year na di ko na rin maalala... ;p

I don't know if I should be thankful about this pero it feels good eh... I'm turning back to my pagka-masungit at maldita ways... nyahahahahaha!! <---- should I be happy about this? nyahahahahahaha!! syempre naman!! as long as it makes me feel happy eh...

My lil bro started calling me ate this year, di lang pag my kelangan sya sa 'kin...

I got to spent more time with my HS friends this year than the previous years fter graduating from HS

She came back!! After almost two years of absence, she caame back!! Finally!! natauhan din sya!!

I learned so many things... Now I think I'm wiser than before...

I became more open-minded about stuffs...

Despite the hardness of this year I still got what I wanted

And most of all I want to thank God for being so generous and patient with me... He's always been at my side guiding me and protecting me... And I believe that next year will be better because I know with God's help and guidance everything will just be fine... And I'll make sure I'll do my part to make eveything work out...

Things...

I can't help but be saddened at how things turned out to be.

This year... well... it didn't turned out that great. It was a hard year. There are more disappointing things that had happened than things I can be happy about. So many problems, heartaches and more problems, I had experienced in just one year. Life's getting tougher by the second, every decision made may as well be a make or break, life changing choice, a wrong move can make everything crumble into pieces. Things didn't turned out to be as wonderful as the past years.

So many things I wish I didn't do. So many things I wish I did. So many regrets and tears unshed. So many dreams yet to achieve.

This year I learned that life isn't always as colorful as I always thought it was. There are grey spots and sometimes you have to see things in black and white to fully understand them.

I want to believe that everything will turn out just fine. That every cloud has its silver lining. That there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I want to be optimistic like I always do.

So next year... lets just see how things will turn to be. I don't want to expect things to be better. I want action!! Expecting won't lead me to places I want to be. I'll make sure that I get what I want. And I'll work for it... hard...

two post in one day...

hehehehehehe... wala lang... kasi I was washing the dishes ( i hate washing dishes...) the my brother switched the channel to studio 23 tamang-tama... barkada trip... I love watching barkada trip... cute characters with so kulit personalities... hehehehehehe... so un nga... when I heard the na barkada trip ung palabas... I stopped washing the dishes and watched TV hehehehehehehe... I really really love barkada trip!! iiwanan ko lhat ng gngwa ko pag nririnig kong barkada trip ung pinapalabas sa studio 23 hehehehehehehehehe... At crush ko nga pla si Bok... nyahahahahahaha!! Oh!! and I want a shirt of barkada trip!! does anybody know kung saan mkkbili non? ;p

Madaling araw na at di pa ako inaantok...

Last monday me, Ging and Glai went to Guadalupe to watch a fund raising religious concert. Glai's friends which happened to be twins, sung in that concert. It was a good show with music and drama, plus may raffle draw pa... nyahahahahaha!! Glaiza even won the grand prize. She really wants to win a prize and God heard her prayer. Swerte talaga!!It was so much fun spending time with them. Kwentuhan galore 'to!! bwahahahaha!! The concert started at around 8 pm so medyo guton na kame... We didn't finish the concert kasi nga nagrereklamo na mga sikmura namen... We left the show at around 9 pm, then we went to baywalk to eat. Pero grabe ha!! after 10 years bago kame nakakain... Around 11 na ng mag dinner kame. Nalipasan na ng gutom si Ging yun nabigla tuloy ung sikmura nya ng kumain sya... Pero one of the waiter asked for Ging's cell #... ASIM kasi!! bwahahahahaha!! It's really such a wonderful night tpos madaling araw na kme nakauwi... Glai slept over at Ging's place kasi nga late na... hehehehehehehe...

MMFF Movies...

Movie entries I wanna watch this coming MMFF:

Shake Rattle and Roll <---- waited so long for another S.R.R. movie... nyahahahahaha!!

Ako Lrgal Wife <----- trailer's so funny!!

Blue Moon <----- wala lang... nag-iisa lang kasi syang drama eh... puro comedy at fantasy at horror palabas eh... nyahahahahaha!!

Things...

Remorse... no...
Regret... maybe...
Sad... every time I think about it, yes...
It's slowly slipping off my grasp...
And I'm not doing anything to stop it...
It's a mistake on my part I know...
I didn't do anything...
I just stood there watching evrything, slowly fading away...
Losing things along the way...
Hoping that one day it'll all come back...
But I know that's just wishful thinking...
I'm really lost right now...
Don't really know where to go...
I miss the way it used to be...
I really do...
God please help me... Guide me... Help me...
I want to believe everything will work out just fine...
I know you're there... always there and so patient...