Crunchy

Eto ang ginagawa ng mga walang ginagawa na katulad ko(walang ginagawa pero may ginagawa contradicting ba?) haha!! Manood ng manood ng kang anu-ano. Yun ang ginagawa ko ngayon pag walang magawa haha!! So for one month na pagbabakasyon I have watched several drama series and animes. Thank goodness kahit papaano maayos dsl namin kahit palokoloko minsan hehe.. Right now I'm watching a not so horror series from Japan. It's a nice series though. You get to see and learn Japanese folklore. I remember watching the tagalized version of the series back in high school. Wala lang it's nice to watch it again hehe...

So yun.. sana magkawork na din kami hehe.. magiging farmer na lang yata ako a Australia haha!!

Reading the past

Haha!! I was reading my past blog entries here and I noticed that the words 'agitated', 'vacation', 'stress' and 'frustration' were almost present in every entry haha!! Grabe I realized that I won't feel agitated, stressed or even frustrated over the same things anymore. Now if ever I will feel those unpleasant feelings again, it'll be for a different reason. So anyways, I can't help but laugh at my past entries. There are incomplete sentences, wrong punctuation or lack thereof haha!! My past entries even though serious, now seemed funny. and it brings back memories haha!!

Snippets

For the past few days PBB viewers have watched how the conflict between the remaining girls inside the house became a full-blown awayan, bangayan at parinigan. And from a viewer's point of view I think that what Wendy said about Gee-ann was foul(it's the Pamela thing...). And come on, at one point the houmates became plastics with the exception of Mickey and Bea I think. Also, it doesn't mean na tahimik ka lang habang may nagpoprovoke sayo o nang-aaway ay plastic ka na. That's because people deal with things differently. Bea has been consistent with how she deals with situation like that. I mean some people really opt to stay calm when everything is becoming such a big mess. I'm also like that. I rather stay quiet than makipagsabayan sa height ng emotions ng ibang tao.

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I really need to find work na. I'm lucky that Mama is not pressuring me to get a job pronto!! But I really feel that something's after me and running after something and there's this time limit. Maybe I'm jut pressuring myself.

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I slept early last night haha!! That's one big accomplishment for me na semi-insomniac. At around 8:30 in the evening nakatulog ako tapos nagising ako ng 1:30 in the morning. I thought that I won't be able to go back to sleep. But after two hours yun nakabalik na ako sa dreamland.

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The keyboard of our computer is such pain. After we purchased this I immediately noticed that the letter 's' is screwed up. If there's no missing 's', there is an excess 's' naman. And now nakikipagabayan yung letter 'c' argh!! I want a new keyboard.

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Yesterday was a relatively a nice day. Went to St. Mary's College QC to buy my little brother's book. Met up with Zon and kwentuhan kami. I really miss talking to her. I miss her. Period.

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I'm so happy na may work na si Mellannie. Go Ate!! Go!! Thankful din ako na kahit papaano eh most of my classmates have work na hehe... I really want each and everyone of us to be successful. Go CA1!!

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I miss my CA1

Chikadora

To the right corner wearing a red shirt and heavy mascara Babydoll!!

To the left corner wearing a green shirt and eye glasses Peter Pan!!

And on the other side err.. on which ever corner that is, wearing a yellow shirt and a bright smile Happy!!

But wait there's more on Peter Pan's side, err.. a lap dog?

Just when I thought that that reality TV show couldn't get anymore exciting, well I was proven wrong... NOT!! yet I think things inside that house is starting to spice up. I wonder when will I see more action inside that house haha!! A fist fight might do... violent... how about pulling each other's hair? haha!! that would be pretty fun to watch right? haha!! But right now I think who's poor, who has the money or who has a celebrity for a dad is out of the question as to who deserves to win the grand prize of that competition. The way I see things inside the house the one who's in dire need of the money doesn't deserve to win at all. People who are an avid watcher of that reality TV show are entitled to their own opinion regarding the whole ordeal inside the house now and who they think should win. As for me I always root for the one who needs money, but after watching the recent development inside the house, I changed my mind.

Errr... scrath this entry... I just read online that that reality TV show is rigged and it really doesn't matter who gets the most number of vote as long as yung mga tao na nagpapalakas sa rating ang matitira.

So I guess we'll see more Peter Pan and the lap dog... grrr...

wwwwaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!

For the past few days I've been out of it. My mind and heart had turned into an ocean of mixed emotion with frustration being the domineering feeling. My mood swings had been drastically changing every now and then, meaning, it's worse than the usual. I don't like this feeling... argh!!

raindrops keep falling on my head

I am not an emotional type of person. But I'm such a sucker for bittersweet movies/stories. Wala lang hehe.. Siguro kaya gusto ko ng mga ganoong movies/stories kasi nga I rarely cry for myself. Kaya isinasabay ko na lang sa pagiyak ko habang nanonood o nagbabasa ng mga ganoong stories. Pero pag ibang tao na ang nahihirapan o umiiyak, naiiyak ako para sa kanila. Weird ba? haha!! Weird nga hehe..


ana magkawork na ko hehe..

Let there be rain!!

There's one thing a person should never say to a communication arts student, and that is 'ang saya naman ng AB walang ginagawa' and the worst thing one could ever say is 'madali lang course mo'

I mean come on!! Most people think that taking up communication arts in college is easy. And that idea is dead wrong. WRONG!! WRONG!! WRONG!! INCORRECT!! NOT TRUE!! What else should I say to make people understand that any course in AB is just as hard as an engineering or a science course? How many times have I defended my course to those people with 'my course is harder, we have lots of things to do blah blah blah' attitude. Hmmmm... that sounds like someone we had interviewed months ago (but I do hope he gets into a medical school) haha!!. People like that don't understand that any course is as hard as any other course there is and it doesn't matter what school you come from. My blood boils everytime I remember those people who belittled my course or my faculty. This rant about those people who think that way about my course and my beloved faculty has long been overdue. How many times have I wanted to write about how irritating it is when people say 'madali lang naman course mo eh'? Some people don't understand how grueling it is to produce a 15-minute seconder teaser for an advertisement or how mentally taxing it is to coneptualize a film, documentary, communication plan or a storyline for a script. No one really knows that until they experience the things I have mentioned. It's a widespread common misconception that people from the Faculty of Arts and Letters have it easy. Is it our fault that our we study and have fun at the same time? Courses from my faulty are really interesting because we're not boxed within the four walls of our classroom, the library and the univesity itself. Some people think that it's fun to shoot films, commercial, documentary etc. and well they are correct but it doesn't mean that it is easy. We don't just point and shoot our cameras and capture footages on a whim. There's a process we follow and because other people doesn't know about that, they think it's a breezy and dandy task. They don't even know how long it takes to edit a 5-minute documentary.

SHORT BREAK...
eeekkk!! the electricity suddenly went out!! Thank goodness blogger has an autosave feature now teehee..

AND NOW WE RESUME...

Hay!! nawala na ko sa mood magsulat, nawala na rin yung pagkairita ko hehe... next time ko na lang itutuloy reklamo ko sa mga taong nangmamaliit sa course ko. Hmpf!! akala mo kung sino hmpf!!

The sky is as blue as yessterday..

There are some things I wish I knew and some things I wish I didn't do. Because of the things I now knew which I obviously didn't know about or lets just say semi-knew about then, now it feels like my mind is spinning and my chest constricting with frustration and not to mention pressure. How I hope that people around me would be more open so as to avoid this situation from happening again. And I hate being left out in the dark. I always have to grasp things in the dark in order for me to find even the slightest ray of light. Goodness!! I really want to scream right now!! Argh!! If only I knew maybe just maybe I wouldn't be that selfish, I wouldn't have done that, that soon and I wouldn't feel this heavy load. The pressure is kicking in and the frustration is just plain troublesome.

confusing

Fickle

: "marked by lack of steadfastness, constancy, or stability"
: "given to erratic changeableness"
(Merriam-Webster Dictionary. http://m-w.com)

Fickle is one of the many words that can describe me. Being fickle is one trait that I am not proud of. I want some thing now as in really really want, but in a blink of an eye or even a fraction of a second poof!! I don't want it anymore. Which brings me to this dilema: I want this but I'm not really sure of that anymore. I'm beginning to be confusing now I know. Bear with me or just don't try to grasp whatever I'm trying to convey here because believe me you'll just be confused. I want so many things in life, so many things, but I also want that, and I also want another thing and another and another and another and the list goes on. I really don't know what to do regarding with this matter. I am not a very good decision maker and I don't want to make a decision right now without giving it much consideration and deliberation. I know I must weigh the pros and cons first before jumping into any decision. Oh my!! what to do?! What to do?!



My bak is aching, I have to lie down now... Argh!!

Happy Shalala!!

I wonder why I can easily cry when I see people hurting, sad or crying. It's as if I can feel their pain, agony and suffering. But why can't I cry for myself?

A little bit of everything

May 27, marks the last week of May for year 2007. Bye bye excruciating heat and sunny sunshine, hello rain, heavy clouds and oh!! let's not forget flood. Supposedly by this time I'm already preparing stuff for the new school year. But this year and for the years to come it'll be different. No more shopping for school supplies, books, bags or shoes. Those things that I've been doing for the last 16 years of my life before the new school year starts will soon become a distant memory of a now graduate student.





When I was still studying all I can think about is graduating so I can finally earn my own money. Buy the things I want and eat at retaurants and eat more. I never actually thought that it will be this hard to let go of the things you've been accustomed to for the past 16 years. 16 years of studying, 16 years of spending 75% of my life inside the classroom, 16 years of making projects and reports and 16 years of priceless experience. When I was in college sometimes I think about the good old days in high school, wishing that the hands of time will turn back to those years. Now I wish I was a college student again, eager to see my blockmates at the first day of the new school year and excited to exchange stories of our summer adventures.





Now, it'll be different. All of us will face the 'real world' for the working people and that, will also be our 'real world' now. And I'm afraid. Most of my classmate are working now. I used to work but I resigned and I don't want to go on with the details about that matter. So... yeah, most of them I think already knows what they really want to do in life and I'm happy for them. I really want each and every one from CA1 to be successful. But as for me, I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do. I want an exciting work, a work that will allow me to travel and learn new things about stuff not discussed inside the classroom.





Sometimes I feel lonely that I won't be able to spend time with my classmates especially with Amz and Pinks. Also, Labs has a work na as an agent for a call center I'm afraid that we won't see each other that much anymore or text each other as much as we want to because by the time she's working and awake I'm sleeping. And everything is changing fast. Change that I must accept. And I don't really know how I feel. It's a mixture of fear and loneliness and add a spoonful of pressure, not from anyone but from myself. I want more in life and I hunger for adventure yet I'm not brave enough to make it happen, to search for my happiness and place in this new world.








This whole world will be my classroom now where everyone is both a teacher and a student.

Ranting

Sleep is what I wanted most after almost a year of sleepless nights due to amazingly heavy load of school works. And now I'm unemployed and a professional bum again who has all the sweet time in the world to sleep and yet can't. You see, even though I'm so sleepy I can't stop myself from staying up until the witching hours. I already know that my body-clock is all screwed up and just when I thought I already got it fixed, it went haywire again. I sleep at around four in the morning and I wake up at around seven in the morning also. More or less I only get two-to-three hours of sleep and I don't like that, I really don't. *sigh* I know it's my fault, why I'm not getting enough sleep. I stay up late surfing the net then after that I'll read a book and I know I really need to stop this bad habbit of staying up late. I should start now but the PC won't let me go haha!! Yes!! It's the PC's fault!!

Ranting

Kahapon May 1, Labor Day and it's an official holiday so mas mataas ang rate per hour sa work hehe.. Sana yumaman ako sa pag OT lagi haha!!

Birthday ngayon ni lola yey!! hehehe.. punta kayo sa bahay ang daming spaghetti nyahaha!!

Grabe, almost everyday I feel like pulling my hair out from its roots. I feel frustrated over something na alam ko na ako ang may gawa. Nafrufrustrate lang talaga ako.

Randomness

Tomorrow will be the 'SOAP Lelen Day' haha!!

I think I deserve that. Stupidity is not an excuse and what I did, though an honest mistake, is still a mistake so there's really no way out of this but to face the conequences.

Good luck for me tomorrow haha!!

On a different note, yesterday I was reading a 2005 issued magazine and guess what I saw and read?

Clue: "We dance... we dance... to the music lalalala..."

Yep I saw a picture of the cast of 'Once on this Island' and read the article. Just looking at the picture makes me wanna go back in time and perform the muiscal with my classmates all over again. Just looking at the picture, brings back fun memories. The 'Zagu' break, lunch or dinner at 'Bingkay's', the backdrop painting, the grand stand, and everything else that we did with the last month of our second year college came rushing back in my memory in vivid colors.

Oh how I long for those days gone by... How I miss my classmates and our profs... I miss UST...

¿Habla usted español?

Regret...

That's what I'm feeling right now. I should have paid more attention to my Spanish class, memorized each verb ending with ar, er, and ir by heart, memorized the ten rules, and everything else!! I can't even remember the spanish version of The Lord's Prayer, Hail Mary and Glory Be... It's really sad that I didn't took those two semesters of Spanish lessons seriously...

Best Spanish learned words and phrases:

oruga: caterpillar
distraida: abent minded
el sol es el centro del sistema solar: the sun is the center of the solar system(hehe... I remember this sentence as one of the example of rule #1)
Caliente: hot!! (We even used this word as our class agency name hehe... 'CAl1ente')
que le pasa a usted?: what is the matter with you? (our prof told us that this sentence is grammatically incorrect, but still, it's written in our book)
no me pasa a nada: nothing is the matter with me (the answer to the question que le pasa a usted? Again this is a grammatically incorrect sentence haha!! But this one's my favorite sentence as well as the question)
soy bonita: I'm pretty
feo: ugly
feliz año nuevo: happy new year!!

Best Spanih movie:

De Eso No E Habla: I Don't Want to Talk About it
El Lobo: The Balloon... Hahahaha!! It's actually 'The Wolf'

*sigh*

I miss Spanish class, Señora Ferrer and Sir Obusan(kahit na nahuli niya ko na ginagaya ko isya hehe..)

What your name means (numerology)

You entered: Merlynnjer Pineda Ato

There are 19 letters in your name.
Those 19 letters total to 93
There are 7 vowels and 12 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 3

The characteristics of #3 are:
Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.
The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means: You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

Source: http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

Birthday Calculator

9 March 1986

Your date of conception was on or about 16 June 1985 which was a Sunday.

You were born on a Sundayunder the astrological sign Pisces.
Your Life path number is 9.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1 & 5.You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 7 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 8 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446498.5.
The golden number for 1986 is 11.
The epact number for 1986 is 19.T
he year 1986 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/9/1986 and ending 1/28/1987.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Tiger.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Wolf; your plant is Plantain.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Pachons, the first month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 28 AdarI 5746.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 29 AdarI 5746.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.12.14.14 which is12 baktun 18 katun 12 tun 14 uinal 14 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Sunday, 27 Jumadiyu'th-Thani 1406 (1406-6-27).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 March 1986.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 4 May 1986.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 12 February 1986.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 18 May 1986.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1986.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 4 October 1986.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 24 April 1986.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 11 February 1986.

As of 3/26/2007 5:46:50 AM EDT

You are 21 years old.
You are 252 months old.
You are 1,098 weeks old.
You are 7,687 days old.
You are 184,493 hours old.
You are 11,069,626 minutes old.
You are 664,177,610 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Bow Wow (1987)
Chingy (1980)
Emmanuel Lewis (1971)
Juliette Binoche (1964)
Robin Trower (1945)
Bobby Fischer (1943)
Raul Julia (1940)
Mickey Gilley (1936)
Yuri Gagarin (1934)
Keely Smith (1932)
Irene Papas (1926)
Mickey Spillane (1918)
Samuel Barber (1910)

Top songs of 1986

That's What Friends Are For by Dionne & Friends
Walk Like an Egyptian by BanglesOn My Own by Patti LaBelle & Michael McDonald
Greatest Love of All by Whitney HoustonStuck with You by Huey Lewis & the News
Rock Me Amadeus by FalcoKyrie by Mr. Mister
Kiss by Prince & the Revolution
Papa Don't Preach by Madonna
How Will I Know by Whitney Houston

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.00861056751468 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 349 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 22 candles.

Those 22 candles produce 22 BTUs,
or 5,544 calories of heat (that's only 5.5440 food Calories!) .

You can boil 2.51 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1986 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1986 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1986 in the US there were 2,400,000 marriages (10%) and 1,159,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1986 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1986 the population of Australia was approximately 16,138,769.
In 1986 there were approximately 243,408 births in Australia.
In 1986 in Australia there were approximately 114,913 marriages and 39,417 divorces.
In 1986 in Australia there were approximately 114,981 deaths.

Your birthstone is Aquamarine

The Mystical properties of Aquamarine

Aquamarine is often used to experience love and mercy.
It is said to help ease depression and grief.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone.
(Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Jade, Rock Crystal, Bloodstone

Your birth tree isWeeping Willow, the Melancholy

Beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.

There are 274 days till Christmas 2007!There are 287 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you wereborn was waning crescent.


Source: http://www.paulsadowski.org/BirthDay.asp

Random musing...

For the past few weeks I've been reading about the dicoveries of new species of plants and animals and can you believe that scientists found a new specie of mollusk here in the Philippines? Great huh? There's really so many things to discover and in this world.

So everyone put on your walking shoes and follow me (secret code for: everyone help me spread merlynniasis) as we explore the endless posibilities the world has to offer!! (secret code for: world domination)

Haha!!

Just wondering...

Hey, still remember when we were little kids and a candy or a peso can satisfy us, or the days where we spend most of our time running around not really caring if the world ends the next day? Sometimes I wonder what happened and why we became the way we are now. Times change. People change. Every thing's in flux. But don't you wish that the little child that we once were will always be with us? I mean, lets face it, somewhere along the way we lose that little child within us. I know some of us won't admit it but through our journey we became jaded, cynical and afraid. I myself wonder what ever happened to me and why I lost some part of me along the way. I miss Me. And I really want Me to come back...

I guess I should staryt looking for Me now.

The Circus

It's that time again when the circus comes to town. We see different kinds of animals performing amazing acts, trying to catch each and every spectator's attention. And sometimes the animals try to outshine one another in the quest for popularity.

Where else can you see a monkey singing, dogs dancing and crocodiles dancing to the tune of tango while juggling truckloads of chips? Nowhere but in the Philippines!!

Let's all sit down and enjoy the show...