stranded

Scared. Confuse. Stagnant.

My inner compass had gone haywire. And now I'm standing on a crossroad with a blank look on my face. I am super loss.

I don't know how to get there. So here I am standing still afraid to take a step.

speechless

And so I heard that writing is not for me. I feel sad that some people think that way. But I'm thankful anyway because they're just being true to me. But still it hurts.

It's no secret that I want to be a writer and I want to write and have my own drama series one day. I may not be an expert in grammar, I may not really know how to play with words nor use big words but I do like writing.

I will try again and again to write. I'll continuously improve myself. In the end, all that really matter is what I want and I what I did to achieve it.

Bob Ong says...

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

21. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

Bored

I'm so bored... And because of boredom I started exercising (hip hop abs to be exact). Doing hip hop abs makes me feel good. My muscles are stretched, I'm sweating and I feel so active. So maybe boredom can bring out good things. Like awhile ago, I was so bored I started doing yoga. Just the basic moves, position and the breathing exercise. I felt my muscles stretching and it felt so good.

I just hope I never get tired of hip hop abs and yoga. 

confused... ~_~

Again, I find myself standing on a crossroad. And honestly, I don't know which path to follow. I know where I want to go, I know what I want to do and yet I don't how to start.

For now I'm a drifter until further notice.

The Edward Cullen Fever

Symptoms of Edward Cullen Fever:

1. You start wanting to have a drop dead gorgeous vampire for a boyfriend.
2. From a prince riding a white horse, the Prince Charming you've wanted for a long time suddenly became someone who is an impossibly beautiful vampire that can read your thoughts. And instead of the white horse, he drives a silver volvo.
3. You start wanting to have shiny swarovski skin.
4. You have the urge to play the piano like a virtuoso.
5. You have a violent reaction when you saw Rob Pattinson's new 'do. 

If you have two or more symptoms mentioned above, then there is no doubt that you have been hit by the Edward Cullen fever. 

I'm sorry for the Edward Cullen fanatics out there, but up until now it baffles me what makes girls go gaga over him. So what if he's impossibly beautiful, a superb pianist, drives a silver volvo and romantic? Maybe, it's because up until now many girls (not just the teens) still believes in a prince charming (okay... the love scrooge is emerging again). Or in this case, a vampire like  prince charming in which people saw in Edward. 

I've seen the movie and read the books but I still don't get it. He's just not my type maybe. 

Curiosity killed that cat!

So I was curious and searched the net for some information. But I swear I was not prepared to know the truth. Errr... scratch that, rather I was not prepared for what I saw. 

I was listening to the morning rush and they mentioned about herpes. Yes herpes! The sexually transmitted disease. They mentioned that herpes does not go away (?) but remains dormant. So the curious kitty in me came out and searched the net about herpes. I should have known that curiosity killed the cat. I was not prepared to see herpes! I mean, herpes on the mouth and face I can handle but on the genitals? Ack! I still` cringe when I think about what I saw. I should have not scrolled down the page but well, curiosity got the better of me.

So be very very careful when you do the deed. Ack!  

2008 Ride - Year in Review

This is a very very late year in review entry...

2008 was a roller coaster ride. It was exciting, fun and scary. There were so many loops, uphills and downhills. And just when I thought that the ride was over, well let's just say I didn't see another loop ahead. Oh how many times have I wanted to stop the wild ride but I can't, I have to finish the ride. 

2008 was a fruitful year. I learned alot and gained much treasured experience from here in the Philippines and abroad. I became less selfish or I would like to think so. There were also a lot of "first time" for me. I was able to travel abroad, the white water rafting at Ayung River, Bali, Indonesia and I met a lot of people from different country. It was a very hard year for me but it was fun. 

Forget about the downhills of the ride. I just want to remember the uphills and the exciting yet scary loops of the roller coaster ride that was 2008.