Good morning

Grabe ang pangit ng gising ko kanina. Ang bigat ng feeling, sumasakit sikmura ko tapos parang kumikirot yung gums ko. Argh!! Ang pangit talaga ng pakiramdam ko. Pati pagbabasa wala ako gana hay...

Sabel!! This must be love!! -Carmi Martin, Working Girls

I am so inlove with Nakatsu SHuichi!! He is such an adorable character haha!! Well anyone who had watched the recently concluded Hana Kimi Jdorama would undertsand. For me Ikuta Toma played the character very well. He made Nakatsu's character so lovable espeially when he's troubled because of what he felt for Mizuki. Haha!! I love the way he acts when he thinks. Very funny haha!! I love Nakatsu!! Yun lang...

Pick-A-Thought

I am my own enemy. I am in constant battle with my pride and everything else that comes with it. Complications arise when my pride gets the better of me. And oh boy!! What opportunities I had let slipped through my grasp because of that damn pride!! So boys and girls always remember that pride is one of the seven capital sins so don't fall prey to it. It might consume you without noticing it.

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Opportunity is always knocking at my door. And it is my choice whether to let it in, make it wait until it gets tired of waiting and leaves or immediately swing the door open and welcome it with glee. But expect a stupid girl like me to make Mr. Opportunity wait with the hope that I'll accept it with open arms but in the end it's either I'll shoo it away or tell lies just to get away from it. Many times I landed on a job despite competition. But I always find myself looking for a flaw or something to complain about the job. So in the end I say no at the job offer. See at what I'm doing with opportunity? I'm not proud of it really, and I hope Mr. opportunity won't get tired of me.

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I have this habbit of starting something and not finishing it. I am very fond of reading but in the span of three weeks I have read several books without really finishing it. Grrr!! I'm frustrated with my own self argh!!

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Ah!! Last tuesday Labidabs treated us at Pancake House for her birthday. Thanks Labs!! I really had fun. Now I miss you even more!!

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I can't believe Christmas is just around the corner. My Chritmas last year wasn't as great as our new year's celebration. I really hope that this year Christmas will be better.

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Again, for the past three week I had read two romance novel and I had noticed several things with the story elements. But I'll post those observation next time haha!!

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I suddenly remembered this guy haha!! I can't even remember his name or how me met but we were enjoying talking with one another until we were subtly flirting na. We were talking about food yata, he's a HRM student and he told me that it'll be a pleasure for him to cook for me. I can't remember the details of the things we had talked about. Basta the very thing that I remember about our coversation was what he said to me haha!! He said "kainin kita dyan eh". I told him "Di pwede no, unless kumakain ka ng kapwa tao mo" Haha!! Every time I remember what he said natatawa talaga ako bwahahaha!!

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As of this moment I am reading yet another novel haha!! multi-tasking at its best haha!! After reading five pages I realized that I don't like the Lorraine character and it's silly to be engage or be in a relationship with someone you don't trust. Hay naku...

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Who ever is the good soul who gave me a 135 worth of phone credit thank you. Haha!! Two days ago between 1:30-2 in the morning I found out that I have mysteriously acquired phone credits. But I think it came from my network service provider. I read na they're giving prepaid credits as a form of reward.

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Bwahahahaha!! I jut want to laugh wala lang haha!!

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Think positive

Just recently I realized that I was running in circles, stalling, procrastinating. I was leisurely passing time just for the hang of it. And it has to end sooner or later. I'm really feeling miserable right now. I'm having one of those moments again where I should feel glad but instead I want to scream and cry. I just want to cry but the tears won't fall out. And I'm scared. Scared of the big world I have to face. I really should/must stop wanting to turn back time and be a college student again. I'm the type of person who tends to hang on to something important for a very long time. And college life was a blast. And I really don't want to let go. But I have to.

From now on I'll try my best in everything. I don't want to be a disappointment. I want to have fun and be happy.

Emergency!!

Stop the press!!

Stop whatever it is that you're doing!!

There's a national crisis brewing...

Let us all kneel...

Kneel in front of the television and watch the blow-by-blow account of the two tv stations with the word war between two persons.

This is huge I say!! Huge!! This might change our lives as we know it.

Call the police, the MMDA, SSS, MTRCB, PCSO, the Disaster Coordinating Group, call everyone phuuuleeeeeeeaaaaaasssssseeeee!!! We should stop the word war before other countries get involve. Oh!! The humanity!! What is it coming to?

Yes, what is it coming to? Especially with the people in this country. Instead of filing a petition for certiorari with the controversial human security act, some people wants the senate to investigate the scandal that had happened in a noon time show. After watching that on the news I thought "wala na bang magandang magawa ang mga tao ngayon at pati yun kailangan pang gawing national issue?" There are other things far more important that the senate should investigate, like the revival of the "Hello Garci Scandal" Uhhmmm... I understand that it is really important for most people to know whether or not the alleged cheating happened. But come on!! Is it really really that important? Let people handling media regulations and DTI(I guess) solve the problem. And let us all have a peaceful afternoon instead.

Nyak!!

Bye bye DSL!!

OO!! tatanggalin na DL namin. Bakit? Kasi di kami maawat sa pag gamit ng PC huhu... Kaya sa susunod baka mad dial-up na naman ulit kami. Kasi naman di ko maintindihan kung bakit *toooooooooooooooooot* Kung kailan *tooooooooooooooooooot* Asar!! Di ko alam kung ano ginagawa nila *tooooooooooooooot* Dapat nga ngayong *toooooooooooot* Di ba? Hay wala tayo magagawa ganyan talaga eh...

grrr..

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I just want to scream!! I'm starting to panic because I'm still a bum. And I really do want to work na. It's really hard to find a job that's related to my course nowadays. And I don't want to be a call center agent again. GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDNNNNNEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Top 10

I just want to kill time and well, I decided to post a new entry. I really don't have much to share because currently my life revolves around teaching my little brother with his homeworks and helping him study for a test. Argh!! It's boring right? I really need to find a job soon. What was I gonna write about again? Oh!! I'm going to share random facts about me teehee..

1. Milo serves as milk for me. So when I can't sleep I drink Milo.


2. I eat fruits with salt. So even though it's a sweet one, I still partner it with salt


3. There's a certain shade of green that whenever I stare or see makes me wanna throw-up. And if I don't feel really really good, any shade of green will make me puke. That is if I stare long enough. Also, just last year I found out that staring at any shade of green while in a moving vehicle will make me feel sick.


4. I can't sleep alone.


5. I have lots of pillows.


6. I don't eat paksiw. I haven't tasted one and I will never taste one.


7. Even though I'm not really fond of fish, I actually like seafoods


8. Aside from sinigang na baboy my other favorite ulam/viand is ginataang hipon/alimasag


9. I eat alot but it doesn't show.


10. I'm a semi I repeat semi-man hater. Keyword:SEMI

trabajo

Still confuse. But I think I have an idea as to what I want to do. It's just that I don't know what's next if I ever work in that field. I'm still enjoying vacation but I need work.

The path

To think at this point I should already know what I want to do. But then again, it's me we're talking about so expect me to be confusing or procrastinating. I was in third year college when I decided/realized/knew that after graduation I will work at an advertising agency. I never really gave much thought about my career path back then or the other possibilities the 'working world' has to offer. It's just me working at an ad agency. Me in an ad agency. That's all I ever wanted two years ago. That's my plan A, B, C and so on. Again, it's me we're talking about so don't expect me to follow any plan. But one thing is for sure, I want to be filthy rich haha!! So after graduating I entered the call center world. Far from the ad ageny I dreamt about. But working in an ad ageny is always within reach. It's just that I treaded a different path. I still know my way though. After a month of working in a call center, I realized that I didn't graduate from a very good university with a bachelor's degree just to answer calls, so I resigned when the opportunity striked. Another job was offered to me even before I resigned from work. And at that moment I really wanted the job the company offered. When I have completed everything, passed the interview with flying colors and the third stage of application I suddenly felt that, that job is not for me. In the end I delined the job offer. And recently I decided not to go on with the final interview with an ad agnecy haha!! So can you see the pattern here? Haha!!

So based on my observation, I therefore conclude that:
1. Planning doesn't suit me.
2. I'm very fickle.
3. I'm confusing and confused with what I want to do.
4. I think I'm trying to escape reality that I already graduated.
5. I still don't know what I really want.

Twinkle, twinkle little star

Time's up!!

That's what I have been hearing at the back of my head. It's over. But I refuse to accept that just yet. Stubborn, I know that's just how I am. I want to scream and cry. I'm falling into that hole again. A hole where I find myself walking in and out. I just want to break through this void I created beause of fear. I want to break free.

Jingle Bells

I was reading something over the net describing a window. The description is simple yet I can picture the window in my mind vividly. The colors, the weather and the miniature display of little bears going about their work to prepare for Christmas. Then a sudden longing for Christmas washed over me. The feeling of lightness I feel every Christmas season was like a wave that suddenly toppled me over my seat. It's still halfway 'till Christmas but I want it to be now. The Christmas season gives me an easy and warm feeling. It's my most favorite time/season of the year.

Crunchy

Eto ang ginagawa ng mga walang ginagawa na katulad ko(walang ginagawa pero may ginagawa contradicting ba?) haha!! Manood ng manood ng kang anu-ano. Yun ang ginagawa ko ngayon pag walang magawa haha!! So for one month na pagbabakasyon I have watched several drama series and animes. Thank goodness kahit papaano maayos dsl namin kahit palokoloko minsan hehe.. Right now I'm watching a not so horror series from Japan. It's a nice series though. You get to see and learn Japanese folklore. I remember watching the tagalized version of the series back in high school. Wala lang it's nice to watch it again hehe...

So yun.. sana magkawork na din kami hehe.. magiging farmer na lang yata ako a Australia haha!!

Reading the past

Haha!! I was reading my past blog entries here and I noticed that the words 'agitated', 'vacation', 'stress' and 'frustration' were almost present in every entry haha!! Grabe I realized that I won't feel agitated, stressed or even frustrated over the same things anymore. Now if ever I will feel those unpleasant feelings again, it'll be for a different reason. So anyways, I can't help but laugh at my past entries. There are incomplete sentences, wrong punctuation or lack thereof haha!! My past entries even though serious, now seemed funny. and it brings back memories haha!!

Snippets

For the past few days PBB viewers have watched how the conflict between the remaining girls inside the house became a full-blown awayan, bangayan at parinigan. And from a viewer's point of view I think that what Wendy said about Gee-ann was foul(it's the Pamela thing...). And come on, at one point the houmates became plastics with the exception of Mickey and Bea I think. Also, it doesn't mean na tahimik ka lang habang may nagpoprovoke sayo o nang-aaway ay plastic ka na. That's because people deal with things differently. Bea has been consistent with how she deals with situation like that. I mean some people really opt to stay calm when everything is becoming such a big mess. I'm also like that. I rather stay quiet than makipagsabayan sa height ng emotions ng ibang tao.

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I really need to find work na. I'm lucky that Mama is not pressuring me to get a job pronto!! But I really feel that something's after me and running after something and there's this time limit. Maybe I'm jut pressuring myself.

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I slept early last night haha!! That's one big accomplishment for me na semi-insomniac. At around 8:30 in the evening nakatulog ako tapos nagising ako ng 1:30 in the morning. I thought that I won't be able to go back to sleep. But after two hours yun nakabalik na ako sa dreamland.

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The keyboard of our computer is such pain. After we purchased this I immediately noticed that the letter 's' is screwed up. If there's no missing 's', there is an excess 's' naman. And now nakikipagabayan yung letter 'c' argh!! I want a new keyboard.

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Yesterday was a relatively a nice day. Went to St. Mary's College QC to buy my little brother's book. Met up with Zon and kwentuhan kami. I really miss talking to her. I miss her. Period.

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I'm so happy na may work na si Mellannie. Go Ate!! Go!! Thankful din ako na kahit papaano eh most of my classmates have work na hehe... I really want each and everyone of us to be successful. Go CA1!!

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I miss my CA1

Chikadora

To the right corner wearing a red shirt and heavy mascara Babydoll!!

To the left corner wearing a green shirt and eye glasses Peter Pan!!

And on the other side err.. on which ever corner that is, wearing a yellow shirt and a bright smile Happy!!

But wait there's more on Peter Pan's side, err.. a lap dog?

Just when I thought that that reality TV show couldn't get anymore exciting, well I was proven wrong... NOT!! yet I think things inside that house is starting to spice up. I wonder when will I see more action inside that house haha!! A fist fight might do... violent... how about pulling each other's hair? haha!! that would be pretty fun to watch right? haha!! But right now I think who's poor, who has the money or who has a celebrity for a dad is out of the question as to who deserves to win the grand prize of that competition. The way I see things inside the house the one who's in dire need of the money doesn't deserve to win at all. People who are an avid watcher of that reality TV show are entitled to their own opinion regarding the whole ordeal inside the house now and who they think should win. As for me I always root for the one who needs money, but after watching the recent development inside the house, I changed my mind.

Errr... scrath this entry... I just read online that that reality TV show is rigged and it really doesn't matter who gets the most number of vote as long as yung mga tao na nagpapalakas sa rating ang matitira.

So I guess we'll see more Peter Pan and the lap dog... grrr...

wwwwaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!

For the past few days I've been out of it. My mind and heart had turned into an ocean of mixed emotion with frustration being the domineering feeling. My mood swings had been drastically changing every now and then, meaning, it's worse than the usual. I don't like this feeling... argh!!

raindrops keep falling on my head

I am not an emotional type of person. But I'm such a sucker for bittersweet movies/stories. Wala lang hehe.. Siguro kaya gusto ko ng mga ganoong movies/stories kasi nga I rarely cry for myself. Kaya isinasabay ko na lang sa pagiyak ko habang nanonood o nagbabasa ng mga ganoong stories. Pero pag ibang tao na ang nahihirapan o umiiyak, naiiyak ako para sa kanila. Weird ba? haha!! Weird nga hehe..


ana magkawork na ko hehe..

Let there be rain!!

There's one thing a person should never say to a communication arts student, and that is 'ang saya naman ng AB walang ginagawa' and the worst thing one could ever say is 'madali lang course mo'

I mean come on!! Most people think that taking up communication arts in college is easy. And that idea is dead wrong. WRONG!! WRONG!! WRONG!! INCORRECT!! NOT TRUE!! What else should I say to make people understand that any course in AB is just as hard as an engineering or a science course? How many times have I defended my course to those people with 'my course is harder, we have lots of things to do blah blah blah' attitude. Hmmmm... that sounds like someone we had interviewed months ago (but I do hope he gets into a medical school) haha!!. People like that don't understand that any course is as hard as any other course there is and it doesn't matter what school you come from. My blood boils everytime I remember those people who belittled my course or my faculty. This rant about those people who think that way about my course and my beloved faculty has long been overdue. How many times have I wanted to write about how irritating it is when people say 'madali lang naman course mo eh'? Some people don't understand how grueling it is to produce a 15-minute seconder teaser for an advertisement or how mentally taxing it is to coneptualize a film, documentary, communication plan or a storyline for a script. No one really knows that until they experience the things I have mentioned. It's a widespread common misconception that people from the Faculty of Arts and Letters have it easy. Is it our fault that our we study and have fun at the same time? Courses from my faulty are really interesting because we're not boxed within the four walls of our classroom, the library and the univesity itself. Some people think that it's fun to shoot films, commercial, documentary etc. and well they are correct but it doesn't mean that it is easy. We don't just point and shoot our cameras and capture footages on a whim. There's a process we follow and because other people doesn't know about that, they think it's a breezy and dandy task. They don't even know how long it takes to edit a 5-minute documentary.

SHORT BREAK...
eeekkk!! the electricity suddenly went out!! Thank goodness blogger has an autosave feature now teehee..

AND NOW WE RESUME...

Hay!! nawala na ko sa mood magsulat, nawala na rin yung pagkairita ko hehe... next time ko na lang itutuloy reklamo ko sa mga taong nangmamaliit sa course ko. Hmpf!! akala mo kung sino hmpf!!

The sky is as blue as yessterday..

There are some things I wish I knew and some things I wish I didn't do. Because of the things I now knew which I obviously didn't know about or lets just say semi-knew about then, now it feels like my mind is spinning and my chest constricting with frustration and not to mention pressure. How I hope that people around me would be more open so as to avoid this situation from happening again. And I hate being left out in the dark. I always have to grasp things in the dark in order for me to find even the slightest ray of light. Goodness!! I really want to scream right now!! Argh!! If only I knew maybe just maybe I wouldn't be that selfish, I wouldn't have done that, that soon and I wouldn't feel this heavy load. The pressure is kicking in and the frustration is just plain troublesome.